Four years ago today we lost our little girl. I thought at the time it would be the hardest and darkest day of my life. It was the first time we heard the words "I'm so sorry, your baby's heart has stopped beating" Our beautiful daughter, our precious first born together, our darling Emily, had... Continue Reading →
This photo was taken on New Years Day. I would never normally have shared it as I have zero make up on and really not looking my best. I wasn’t even going to post anything to social media until we had you safely in our arms. But I look back at this now, completely undoctored,... Continue Reading →
Navigating life after loss was never going to be easy. Navigating life after loss after loss after loss wasn't going to be easy either. We are now a good 3.5 years into this world, tainted by the extraction of innocence. Looking out through an impenetrable glass window at the world I used to belong to.... Continue Reading →
I've had this tab open in my browser with the above title for four days now. I have no idea how to begin but I have a huge urge to write. Okay. I'm going to begin by saying I am happy (though that doesn't seem like a strong enough word). Not the happy I... Continue Reading →
My darling girl, It's been over a year since your little heart gave up. That last beat. The last wave of life fighting for you, willing you to keep going. I had no idea you had passed away inside me. The one place you should have been safe from harm. I spoke to you, imagining... Continue Reading →
Life after loss
The term "rainbow baby" is used by parents who are expecting another child after losing a baby to miscarriage, stillbirth, or neonatal death. It is used frequently on blogs and message boards by mothers who have gone through pregnancy loss. The term refers to the fact that a rainbow appears only after the rain. In... Continue Reading →
a rainbow after the storm
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